Yes again she called me and again we started talking. We meet 2-3 times. It is very funny that I don’t want to meet her in some shopping complex or in any multiplex or garden .We use to meet in a vegetable market. Funny na. One day i just asked her where we can meet and she told me that we can meet in a vegetable market, She was thinking that as like other guys i would also prefer some hotel or shopping mall but in my case she was wrong. I always want to choose a place where I can see her without any disturbance .Khadda market was a proper place for me to sit in front of her on any bike and to see her. Hey not only that we have also purchased some fruits and veggies there. I just enjoyed every moment with her. I use to fight with her many times because after a fight she comes close to me. Then only I know how much she cares about me, Yes she cared about me ,very much.Every time when I call her and take her name P**** the she replies with a huuu..,this huu has a very important word of my life. For you guys it is just a meaningless word but for me it has a very very important meaning. Loads of words, feeling care ness is hidden in this word. I told her that without that huu I could not sleep and from then she always gives me huu while sleeping. Without that I was not able to sleep. Just to explain you Huu means for me is she cares about me and I have a person with me who is in this world to care me after my parents. This happiness was not for a long period, one day her father get admitted in hospital, i get very much scared. She believe on me .I always do prayer for her. Never happened in this 1.3 years that i went to any temple and first pray for any other person .I always pray for her and why not she is the most precious person of my life. I always tell to God please always full fill her need and make her happy because if she is happy then i will be happy. When her dad was in hospital on that days i have to go for a marriage .it was a very difficult to choose in that, what should i do.Truely i don’t want to leave her in that situation. Day and night I wish god to take care of her and to take care of her dad so how can i leave her in such a situation, I cant but then i have taken a bad decision to go. But my heart is right here .I left it with her, I cry very much when she call me and start crying and said that Prateek please wish to god to save my dad. I cried because she is crying and I was not able to do anything for her except pray. When i was in train she called my and told me prateek dad is serious and she started crying ,I care about her and can never see her crying ,a s/w engineer of age 22 years started crying in train in front of every one. Then without taking meal i slept with a locket of my Gayetri maa in my hand and started to pray for her dad. Even on platform i cried :'(, this happened never to me in my whole life. I reached my home told the whole scenario to my dad and started crying in front of him. He told me that we can pray for her dad .we have also visited to hospital to discuss the situation for her father. One day i got the bad news it happened all the happiness of her family just disappeared. I was feeling bad because i was not able to do any thing even not go to pune to meet her. I tried to call her but she didn’t received. At that time even i don’t know how to face her. I was very much worried about her exams because they are very near and her dad also want that she should get good marks in that. I started talking to her again because I can’t leave her like this.
Finally i want that she should gives her exams and i wish that she would get good marks in it .More than 85 %.This what i want always. I am always scared of that some day i have to leave her and i know how, I already know that this will be going to happen. We will fight on something and every thing fsss gone. One day i saw her talking to a boy and I don’t know why I got tempr ,I know that it was not right but i am always scared of loosing her. After that day we didn't talk much,she always think that i don’t care about but no one care more then this of any one ,and that’s a challenge .Yes i have done a mistake but is it right that she will go away because of this thing.Now she don’t want to see me and it's a truth. Now i think that the time is over. now i have to go away from her life. I told her that the time has come now i have to leave you because you don’t need me. I just want my angel, a angle who loves me and what is wrong in it yaar.now we have a formality in our relationship. I don’t like that. I don’t want huu because i think she don’t want to give me that. I tried to go away from her life but again recalled my in her life why don’t she just let me go in her life, is she want to see my crying all the time. Now she doesn’t care about me. I am going away from her life slowly .She is lost for me .I always want to search the same Girl but i never found her again. I am trying to go away from her life but vo jane nahi deti.I don’t know why. Is it wrong to search a person who will care for you? I can’t live without her but i have to because she doesn’t want. :) .This is the end of this Story for at least this birth but surely in next birth she will be mine. I have already told that to god and convinced him for that.
I don’t know why I care about her so much even though she doesn’t. when I call her to meet then she says that she can't because it's 8:30 of night or bla bla but she can go with her friends till 10 also, even she goes to Goa but she cant come to meet me. But now i would also don’t care about her. A number of times I want to delete her all msg's, i go to that folder but just cant because for last one year I have not deleted any of her msg, they are very important part of my life but I will delete that some day. I love her very much but she never understand that, She don’t care about my "fucking feeling”. I will always love her and will forget her only when I take last breath. Love never says only to get but also says to loose. Even she will not love me I will love her because its not business and that why it is called as LOVE.
